New Semester, New Resolutions

To be completely honest, my new year didn't really feel like a new year as my previous semester hadn't ended yet. After new year was my finals so I just got my semester break over CNY and I'll be starting my second last semester in a couple of days.

I feel like this year round, I'd like to prioritise myself, to be content alone instead of constantly searching for someone to share an experience with me. There's honestly nothing wrong about doing things on your own, and only now have I come to realise that.

I feel really awkward when it comes to having a meal in public by myself and I just want to overcome that and be comfortable with it. I also realised that there has been a lot of things that I have been wanting to do but I've been putting it off just because I'm waiting for someone to do it with me. Simple things like going to the gym or even cafe hopping.

I've always thought that things would be better with a friend and yes, of course it's true but then again, some days we'll only have ourselves and no one else so why aren't we building a sense of being comfortable and content with just ourselves instead?

This year I really want to learn how to be content with my own company.

That's all for now.

xx, Farm

A Change of Plans

In my last post, I mentioned that I was looking forward to going to Greece with my group of friends. Well, we've now decided to go island hopping in the Philippines and to be honest, it sounds even better cause it's wayyyyy cheaper and more affordable for us. We'd still get to hang and have a good time anyways. It's the company you're with that matters most.

I don't quite regret the change of plans as with this, ALL of us can go together. (Greece was a tad bit far and our parents were pretty uncertain of our decisions plus we're still pretty young and we haven't done this before) At least they make sense.

I'm looking forward to this so much and I'm very very pumped up about it. I'm pretty much an island girl so I love going to beaches and just chilling with a bottle of beer or even a cocktail, depending on my mood.

We'll be celebrating Harrish's 21st in the Philippines and that's gone be lit. Vinnie is celebrating her 21st tomorrow and I can't wait to try Kaoliang, let's all pray that I don't die too soon. Even if I don't I'll probably die on the following day as my cantor group is planning to hike to Monkey Beach. I guess there's no sleep for me.

Kinda bummed that my 2 week CNY break is ending soon and I'll have to go back to Cyberjaya. I've got a couple of new 'resolutions' to execute while I'm there. Will most prolly talk about them in my next post.

That's all for now.

xx, Farm

Plans for 2019

Hey guys! So I'll be turning 21 this year. Well for one, that has been long awaited but I don't really know how I feel about it yet. I started my year off pretty well with the right people in my life.

So far, my travel plans for this year is to go to Bali, Indonesia in July (again), Greece in August (this is a big one!) and Langkawi for my 21st birthday in October! The most exciting one would be Greece as it would be my first time travelling so far (the furthest) and with the best company I could ever ask for, my Pokok Gang! As for my birthday, I was thinking about getting an AirBnB villa and since we're in Langkawi, it isn't a real trip unless alcohol is involved.. YAS! I predict that by the end of October, everyone would pretty much be tired of 2019 and would most definitely want to drink their problems away. So that's exactly what we're going to do. Anyways, I'm the last of the gang to turn 21 so I can patiently watch all my friends be legal first.

Career wise, I'm pretty proud of myself for coming this far. Last year, it felt as though I hit rock-bottom in terms of my job (I lost it) and also my personal life, but let's not get into too much detail with that. I'm really grateful that I got to secure myself a new job, job #2 during the first week of Dec 2018 and I started working mid December. I hope that this new year brings me more opportunities for my personal growth in both my skills and talents.

In terms of health, I've been drinking a lot of water! Well at least more than usual. I also downloaded this app called Daily Water on my phone to remind me to drink water every 1-2 hours. So far I've been doing pretty well. I'm planning to cook more next semester, I've got a few people willing to guide me and teach me so I'm in good hands. And I'm also planning to get back to the gym. Of course I'd have to have a look at next semester's timetable first.

I can't wait to get my Diploma over and done with. Coming here was a blessing in disguise but I'm also getting tired of it. My university isn't the most structured in my opinion but hey, anything for a free education, right? Don't worry, one good thing that I got from this whole experience in Selangor is that I got both my jobs here and that getting out of my island really broadened my perspective and I now see that there is more to life. I noticed that people who have yet to explore out of our island are often stuck in their own bubble.

That's all for now!

xx, Farm